The Present

I met this incredible girl yesterday. She has this personality like no other; completely comfortable around anyone. We relate, I could talk with her for hours and we wouldn’t run out of things to talk about. I’m looking forward to seeing her in the upcoming weeks. But in all reality, I feel like she’s out of my league. That won’t stop me from trying though :) I know where I am in my walk with Christ, and I’m trusting that if it is meant to be, it will come together in perfect timing. Wow, she’s just beautiful!

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We were so happy. You were everything to me. Now, we have grown apart. We were so cute together, so perfect. And then, we crashed. Hit a wall at a mile a second- only to go tumbling apart. I tried to hold on, and I think you did too. But we were just torn at impact. On our deathbeds, we could communicate with our eyes, I wanted to try again, but I knew it was too late. So I moved, I let you fall. I knew I had fallen and had no energy to hold us up. No motive. So in the end, I blame myself. I’m taking a different approach now, and I’m worried I’ll never feel the same way I did with you. Those late nights, those early mornings, the skipped classes to leave roses for you before you got out of class. The dollywood dates, the memories on halloween, Christmas, Easter, etc. But every story has its end. Ours just came a little too soon. And if you ever do want to try again, I want to be here so badly. I want to be the man I once was, in order to find the girl I once had. The girl I still love.

There was only so much somebody could pour into one person. They aren’t mature, they aren’t who they once were. But it doesn’t change the way you first felt about them. Day in- Day out- they will Always, Always be on your mind. But when I look back, I find happiness.. Until I find what I disliked most about all of it: untrust. The way I spent countless hours completely obsessed with finding her deepest secrets.. Coming across who she was when I wasn’t around. But when you look for things to make them the enemy; you usually find it. No more headaches, c’mon now, just move forward. If these two wandering paths meet again, you can hopefully forget the past and create something as magical as the first time. If not, maybe somebody else that comes along could fill those shoes.. But let’s face it.. It’d be quite hard to make me feel the way she once did..

what you are thinking right now. Think about the thoughts inside your thoughts. Are they good thoughts? Or bad thoughts? Happy thoughts? Or sad thoughts? Are they yours? Are they fast? Are they memories? Are they something you once read? Are they something inside your head? Do your thoughts and your emotions conflict? Do they agree? Can they agree? Can they react? Do you think before you act? Do you think about emotions, or do emotions dictate your thoughts? Does this make any sense? Depends on your thought process. Thoughts are still thoughts until you put them into effect. Don’t think you’ll do something, just do it. Nike’s only been around as long as I’ve lived, you think I’d get the motto by now. My thoughts: are nonexistent.